So hard to say goodbye!

It was so hard to tell you "Good-bye!", but how should I know I will lose you forever?I don't want you to look for my forgivness, I forgot it in the pocket of the blue jeans.Tonight I'll try to stop myself from crying and have a good sleep!I don't care anymore about the poison you left in my soul, I'll use it against you one day!It's not revenge, I'll give you back what you've lost!Your poison!
I still love you, but I just can't forgive you, I could die for you anytime, I could try to save your soul giving mine, I would try to save your body, hurting mine, I would try to save your mind even if I would go crazy, but I wouldn't try to forgive you!I'll leave you thinking..."It's all my fault!I'm the one she just couldn't forgive, but she gave everything she had for me!"
I can do anything, but it's not because of you, it's because of them, they made me fall so many times, and you were the last thing I could stand up to!So these time I'll fall and I won't stand up again!I needed you, your protection, you weren't there, so now I'm ashes to the stars!I hope you are happy!
And there's one more thing, I need your forgivness, too!So...please forgive me, but I can't stop loving you, even if they're standing up for me!You we're the only thing I wanned, nothing more, just you!So let me tell you how much I love you, 'cause I'm still standing here, waiting for the sky to fall down on me, waiting for the lies to become truth, waiting for you to come and ask me to give you my life and my forgivness!I'm waiting for you to ask for a second chance and give your poison back!And then we will be free, at least I will be free!